Thursday, July 2, 2009

a message in code

After this morning, I've decided it's time for S to know every thing. I'm scared to tell them, what if they don't see things the way I do? I'm sure S must suspect, but what if S doesn't want to do what I want? What if S wants to stay with B? What if S makes me come back?

I can't do that. One way or another I never want to see T & B again.

Should I just call S when they are off work? Or should I tell S face-to-face?

I don't know what would be best...

What I really want is for S to see things my way. We could leave, we could start over. It would be hard but we could.

What if S thinks its to risky? What if S wants to wait? If S is to worried about green to go I don't know what I could do.

I just have to wait 17 days, but I can't make S do any thing.

But I have to try. And I have to hope. And one way or another I'm never going to see T & B again.

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