What the fuck-hole happend to March?! It's over all ready?! Wowza, I'm totally behind on the times!
(I use far to many exclamation points...)
Now it is April. Spring hath sprung! And the sky hath opend up in torents!
For Pete's sake, all this rain is driving me up the wall.(Actually, all this rain is making me feel like I ought to crawl in a hole & die.)
At work yesterday I realized that it was April first(why I haden't figured this out before is any one's guess). I got so excited that March was over that I ran(casually speed-walked) to the callender to count how many days there were before Chris & I go to New Jersey in May.(50 at the time, now it's 49)
I can not wait 'till May! Our trip is just a month away! I'm turning into Dr. Suess! To quit this ryme would be no use!
But ofcourse, realizing that the trip is so close(yet still so far!) sent me into a tail-spin of worry.
How much should I pack?
What's the airlines weight limmit for checked lugage?
What will I do with my extra stuff if it turns out that I've packed to much?
If I'm over prepaired will every one think I'm high matinence?
If I'm unprepaired will they think I'm stupid?
What will the weather be like when we get there?
Should I pack extra pants?
What about a jacket?
How many pairs of shoes should I bring?
OH GOD, I CAN'T STOP MAKING PACKING LISTS IN MY HEAD!
I am insane.
I really need to start saving money. As it is, I sort of feel like, I have no reason not to spend, so if I feel like buying a couple cute dresses for this summer, what's the harm? But I really want to move out of my mum & da's house ASAP, & for that, I shall need the money.
Part of the whole moving out thing is deciding if I really want to stay in Rockford. I'm young, I have a chance to leave this crap-hole before I'm stuck! But I don't think Chris really wants to leave, & I'm not prepaired to leave him.
Speak of the devil, Chris is here. So I shall end this before I really let crazy out of the bottle.
Love & tampons,
Ariel
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Tuesday, March 10, 2009
What happens to the people you forget?
Some times I think I might just hate my best friend. She really gets on my nerves some times. She's really judgemental, & she's self centered, & she acts like she knows every thing.
Fuck. And whenever I point out her short-comings she gets really offended & freaks out.
We're IMing right now:
Mad: What's up?
Air: I want to kill myself, I hate the weather & stupid Ramen Noodles.
And what does she say? Any thing about my bad day?
Mad: I really really really want to learn how to play this song!
WTF?!
Fuck. And whenever I point out her short-comings she gets really offended & freaks out.
We're IMing right now:
Mad: What's up?
Air: I want to kill myself, I hate the weather & stupid Ramen Noodles.
And what does she say? Any thing about my bad day?
Mad: I really really really want to learn how to play this song!
WTF?!
Please pardon my perplexing pants, they're a potent part of participating in piracy.
Would you think I was completely crazy if I said that I think some one might be trying to poison me? Yes? Alright then, forget I said any thing!
Mad & I went to see Chris's band play last friday.
I was feeling tired, & moody & didn't really want to be there. Mad was no help, since she was hungry, moody & didn't want to be there either.
It's not that I didn't want to be with Chris, or that I didn't want to see the band play, it's just...All of his friends are much older than me, (which is to be expected when you are a 17 year old dating a 20 year old,) & I feel like a little kid. The fact that I don't drink or smoke doesn't help either.
Over-all I'm glad I went. Watching Chris & the boys(Adam, AKA A.P., Brian, & Corey, AKA 'The Co.') play made up for the rest of the night. They are so rad!
Next time though, I think I'll bring snacks.
As of July 19th, I will oficialy be and adult. Whatever that means. So I guess I'm gonna' have to try an' do some thing with myself...Ugh.
I just enrolled at RVC. I have to take a placement test before I can sign up for classes, since I'm a new student & I want to go full time.(I wanted to go part time, but I'll get dropped from my mom's insurance if I get less than 12 credit hours, or some thing like that.)
Erica, my sort-of-cousin/co-worker, took me driving Sunday. I got to drive up to Dekalb! We stopped & said hi to a family she used to work for, & got food at Pita Petes. It was pretty cool, we got to talk a lot on the way there & back, since her car doesn't have a sterio.
I'm almost done reading the Watchmen! Did I mention Chris got me the book for Valentines day? I don't want to be a spoiler but I was really upset when some one was killed by so & so. And I can just marvel at Rorschach's ingenuity! Oh & when Dr. Manhattan changed his mind! I was shocked! He didn't seem to have any emotion whatsoever up until then.
When I started writing todays' blog, I wasn't feeling well at all. I wasn't feeling bad, so much as gloomy. I'm feeling better now, I guess some times I just need to sit & write some silly thoughts. It's relaxing.
Any-hoo, I have nothing more that I can say on the internet with out getting myself & others into much trouble. Have a lovely day!
Love & chickpeas,
Ariel
Mad & I went to see Chris's band play last friday.
I was feeling tired, & moody & didn't really want to be there. Mad was no help, since she was hungry, moody & didn't want to be there either.
It's not that I didn't want to be with Chris, or that I didn't want to see the band play, it's just...All of his friends are much older than me, (which is to be expected when you are a 17 year old dating a 20 year old,) & I feel like a little kid. The fact that I don't drink or smoke doesn't help either.
Over-all I'm glad I went. Watching Chris & the boys(Adam, AKA A.P., Brian, & Corey, AKA 'The Co.') play made up for the rest of the night. They are so rad!
Next time though, I think I'll bring snacks.
As of July 19th, I will oficialy be and adult. Whatever that means. So I guess I'm gonna' have to try an' do some thing with myself...Ugh.
I just enrolled at RVC. I have to take a placement test before I can sign up for classes, since I'm a new student & I want to go full time.(I wanted to go part time, but I'll get dropped from my mom's insurance if I get less than 12 credit hours, or some thing like that.)
Erica, my sort-of-cousin/co-worker, took me driving Sunday. I got to drive up to Dekalb! We stopped & said hi to a family she used to work for, & got food at Pita Petes. It was pretty cool, we got to talk a lot on the way there & back, since her car doesn't have a sterio.
I'm almost done reading the Watchmen! Did I mention Chris got me the book for Valentines day? I don't want to be a spoiler but I was really upset when some one was killed by so & so. And I can just marvel at Rorschach's ingenuity! Oh & when Dr. Manhattan changed his mind! I was shocked! He didn't seem to have any emotion whatsoever up until then.
When I started writing todays' blog, I wasn't feeling well at all. I wasn't feeling bad, so much as gloomy. I'm feeling better now, I guess some times I just need to sit & write some silly thoughts. It's relaxing.
Any-hoo, I have nothing more that I can say on the internet with out getting myself & others into much trouble. Have a lovely day!
Love & chickpeas,
Ariel
Saturday, February 21, 2009
The things I've left undone, these thing are yet to come.
My goodness! Funny seeing you here? How long has it been since we last met? I'm sorry we fell out of touch, Blog. I would say "Oh I've just been so busy with work & Chris & Mad & the fam, I hardly have time to wash my own clothes!" (which is sort of true, I'm wearing my last clean shirt) but the time for excuses is long past. How 'bout I fill you in instead? I say it's about time we caught up!
I don't feel like writing in my journal any more, I think it might have to do with what my journal looks like. It's a fluffy orange book with a blue monster on the cover. Super cute as it may be, I find all the little illistrations on every page a wee-bit distracting. And so, I don't bother writing. I'm going to regret that a few years from now when I feel like reading about my 17-year-old self.
Ah well, such is life.
There have been a lot of other things I've left undone as well. Like laundry...but I did start cleaning my room the other day! It's still a sty, but a much tidier sty if I may say so myself.
Chris & I are still madly in love. A couple nights ago he told me that he wants to spend the rest of his life with me!
Yesterday Chris, Mad & I hung out together. We went to Mary's Market(ohmygod french onion soup is sooooo good! I could eat it for every meal of the day) & to the ELB. It was sort of a slow night, but it was cool to see a few of the old peeps, & a couple of the new peeps. But I still feel to shy to dance in front of Chris.
Oh hold on a moment, Chris is here to deliver some tastey lunch!
And now back to the show.
My dad is leaving to start a new job tomorrow. He's gonna' be driving long distance again, so he'll be gone all week, & home every weekend. He used to drive over the road like four years ago, & I remember what it was like, but I think it's gonna' be weird not having him around all the time. But he'll be making a lot more cash than he was with his other job. Sooo....Yeah. Kinda' sucks.
My job is making me a little crazy. I've been working around 25 hours a week & I'm still not used to it. (hence the fact that I have no clean clothes.)Every day I get up around seven, scarf down some breaky, dress in a rush & hop off to work. I get off around three, go home, shower & all that jazz, & most days Chris picks me up around five. I don't get home 'till 10:30, & since I have to work early in the morning I just brush my teeth & hop in bed. I feel like I have no time at all.
When am I suposed to wash clothes? Do school-work?(I'm not in school, but I'm trying to get ahead in maths before I enroll at RVC next fall.) When do I fit in time for myself? I simply don't understand how people lead ballnced lives. Some of the people I work with have full time jobs outside of B&N, & lots of them have children! How on earth do they find the time?!
Hopefully I can figure out time for housework & myself, as simple as it is I don't think this pattern of sleep, work, Chris, sleep, work, Chris, is really going to work. I don't really want to cut-back on my hours though, since I want to save money to A) fix my car, B) pay for classes & such, & C) get a place of my own some time later this year or next.
Speaking of getting a place, I'm sort of having an issue with that. Actually, never mind. I want to tell some one about this but I'm not sure I'm ready to post it all over the interwebs.
I shouldn't have said any thing.
I'm very itchy all over. I feel like I have fleas. Eeew, fleas!
Ugh, I think I'm going to go take a shower.
Love & tacos,
Ariel
I don't feel like writing in my journal any more, I think it might have to do with what my journal looks like. It's a fluffy orange book with a blue monster on the cover. Super cute as it may be, I find all the little illistrations on every page a wee-bit distracting. And so, I don't bother writing. I'm going to regret that a few years from now when I feel like reading about my 17-year-old self.
Ah well, such is life.
There have been a lot of other things I've left undone as well. Like laundry...but I did start cleaning my room the other day! It's still a sty, but a much tidier sty if I may say so myself.
Chris & I are still madly in love. A couple nights ago he told me that he wants to spend the rest of his life with me!
Yesterday Chris, Mad & I hung out together. We went to Mary's Market(ohmygod french onion soup is sooooo good! I could eat it for every meal of the day) & to the ELB. It was sort of a slow night, but it was cool to see a few of the old peeps, & a couple of the new peeps. But I still feel to shy to dance in front of Chris.
Oh hold on a moment, Chris is here to deliver some tastey lunch!
And now back to the show.
My dad is leaving to start a new job tomorrow. He's gonna' be driving long distance again, so he'll be gone all week, & home every weekend. He used to drive over the road like four years ago, & I remember what it was like, but I think it's gonna' be weird not having him around all the time. But he'll be making a lot more cash than he was with his other job. Sooo....Yeah. Kinda' sucks.
My job is making me a little crazy. I've been working around 25 hours a week & I'm still not used to it. (hence the fact that I have no clean clothes.)Every day I get up around seven, scarf down some breaky, dress in a rush & hop off to work. I get off around three, go home, shower & all that jazz, & most days Chris picks me up around five. I don't get home 'till 10:30, & since I have to work early in the morning I just brush my teeth & hop in bed. I feel like I have no time at all.
When am I suposed to wash clothes? Do school-work?(I'm not in school, but I'm trying to get ahead in maths before I enroll at RVC next fall.) When do I fit in time for myself? I simply don't understand how people lead ballnced lives. Some of the people I work with have full time jobs outside of B&N, & lots of them have children! How on earth do they find the time?!
Hopefully I can figure out time for housework & myself, as simple as it is I don't think this pattern of sleep, work, Chris, sleep, work, Chris, is really going to work. I don't really want to cut-back on my hours though, since I want to save money to A) fix my car, B) pay for classes & such, & C) get a place of my own some time later this year or next.
Speaking of getting a place, I'm sort of having an issue with that. Actually, never mind. I want to tell some one about this but I'm not sure I'm ready to post it all over the interwebs.
I shouldn't have said any thing.
I'm very itchy all over. I feel like I have fleas. Eeew, fleas!
Ugh, I think I'm going to go take a shower.
Love & tacos,
Ariel
Thursday, February 5, 2009
I feel chubby
I am in need of a hair cut, ASAP! I glanced in the mirror today(as I do every day) & realized that I look an awful lot like Raggedy Andy, only my hair is brown instead of hot-rod red. Also, I've been trying to figure out just how many haircuts(& when) I'll need for my hair to look perfect when Chris, & I(Jackie too) go to NJ to see his sister.
Oh I never wrote about that did I? Okay, so I every spring Chris & his mother(Jackie) fly to NJ to visit his sister(Corinna). And this year I was invited to tag along. I'm super excited to meet his sister, though I'm sure as our departure aproches I'll get more & more nervous, as always.
I keep thinking about May. Every time I go downstairs to do laundry I look at my suite case & think "Gosh, I really should bring that upstairs to let it air-out so all my clothes don't smell like the dungeon." But then I remember that it's only Feb. & if I brought it up, my case would only be taking up much needed space in my room for about three months. I think about east-cost weather a lot too. I keep wondering if it'll be warm enough for me to wear all my cute dresses & skirts & whether or not I should buy some shorts. But, once again, I remember that none of this is going to matter for another three months.
I've always been like this though. The first couple times I went to Arkansas with Madeleine, I would wash all my clothes & pack about a week ahead. Then, realizing that I had packed to much & that I had nothing to wear for a week, I'd basically live out of my suitcase until a day or two before we left. Going to Arizona for the summer when I was a kid was even worse! I'd sort out every thing I might want to bring, fold it & stack it neatly on my floor, almost two months before we left! I love making packing-lists too. Since I was an itty-bitty whenever I was sleeping over at a friend's house, going camping, or going on vacation, I'd write & rewrite list after list, making sure I didn't forget any thing--but I always forget some thing important.(Sun-screen, cameras, tooth brush, socks....)
Ugh, all I can think about is leaving Rockford.
I'll write more later.
Love & fishes,
Ariel
Oh I never wrote about that did I? Okay, so I every spring Chris & his mother(Jackie) fly to NJ to visit his sister(Corinna). And this year I was invited to tag along. I'm super excited to meet his sister, though I'm sure as our departure aproches I'll get more & more nervous, as always.
I keep thinking about May. Every time I go downstairs to do laundry I look at my suite case & think "Gosh, I really should bring that upstairs to let it air-out so all my clothes don't smell like the dungeon." But then I remember that it's only Feb. & if I brought it up, my case would only be taking up much needed space in my room for about three months. I think about east-cost weather a lot too. I keep wondering if it'll be warm enough for me to wear all my cute dresses & skirts & whether or not I should buy some shorts. But, once again, I remember that none of this is going to matter for another three months.
I've always been like this though. The first couple times I went to Arkansas with Madeleine, I would wash all my clothes & pack about a week ahead. Then, realizing that I had packed to much & that I had nothing to wear for a week, I'd basically live out of my suitcase until a day or two before we left. Going to Arizona for the summer when I was a kid was even worse! I'd sort out every thing I might want to bring, fold it & stack it neatly on my floor, almost two months before we left! I love making packing-lists too. Since I was an itty-bitty whenever I was sleeping over at a friend's house, going camping, or going on vacation, I'd write & rewrite list after list, making sure I didn't forget any thing--but I always forget some thing important.(Sun-screen, cameras, tooth brush, socks....)
Ugh, all I can think about is leaving Rockford.
I'll write more later.
Love & fishes,
Ariel
Tuesday, November 18, 2008
I'm nothing without spell check
Every once in a while some thing will happen that makes me re-think this silly blog thing. But then I remember "no regrets" & I decide it's better to let life happen then live preventitivly.
But maybe I'm just stupid.
Soooo, life is good. Things are going pretty okay right now. Every thing that's not going well is sort of...ignorable. Not really, but the good out-weighs the bad!
Uh, I really don't think I have any thing I wish to write about. At least not right now.
Maybe I'll try again later.
Love & catfish,
Ariel
But maybe I'm just stupid.
Soooo, life is good. Things are going pretty okay right now. Every thing that's not going well is sort of...ignorable. Not really, but the good out-weighs the bad!
Uh, I really don't think I have any thing I wish to write about. At least not right now.
Maybe I'll try again later.
Love & catfish,
Ariel
Monday, October 27, 2008
Guess who got laid last night!
My life is nuts right now. There's shit going on with the grown-ups & they don't even know that I know. I find it completely disgusting, I'm going to need a crap-ton of therapy sooner or later.
I'm in serious need of a car too. But alas, I don't have enough cash! (Donations of cash &/or cars will gratefully be accepted! No joke!)
Over all though I'm pretty happy. Whenever I start feeling stressed out I just think about all the wonderful things in my life, (my relationship with Chris, my awesome best-friend, & my little bro) it really helps! Some times it good to just forget about the shit & think about every thing I have. Once in a while I get so over-whelmed that I forget just what an amazing a world we live in.
I have a consult with my oral surgeon tomorrow! I can not wait. I'm super excited about getting my wisdom teeth removed. (As strange as that may seem) I still have the teeth that were removed before I got my braces, I think I'm going to have those four, & my wisdom teeth, dipped in silver & put them on a necklace. Haha, that's so creepy.
So la-dee-da. It's totally snowing right now. Is that not nuts? Snow, in October? Yeah right!
Wow this is a random blog-a-doo.
Blog-a-doo? What AM I talking about?!
I told Chris that I love him last night. It was sort of accidentally-on-purpose. I'd been thinking it earlier when we were fooling around, but I didn't want to say it then because he totally wouldn't have taken me seriously. Later, we were just snuggling on the couch, & I realized, this is how I feel! I can't let this moment pass, if I don't say how I feel right now I'll be to scared to say it later. So I said it! The second I did I thought, oh shit. So I added ''you're awesome.'' God I'm a dork. But it was okay! Chris made me repeat myself about three times, which sort of scared me. I almost thought he was going to break up with me right then & there, or worse, drive me home & tell me he needs "space." But instead he said that he loves me too & those words mean a lot to him. Aaaaah I'm sooo happy!
What a life!
Mmmk, I really think I have nothing to write about, this blog is all blathers. I'll try again tomorrow. (Maybe)
Love & fire-crackers,
Ariel
P.s. My dad is being a total dick-face today.
I'm in serious need of a car too. But alas, I don't have enough cash! (Donations of cash &/or cars will gratefully be accepted! No joke!)
Over all though I'm pretty happy. Whenever I start feeling stressed out I just think about all the wonderful things in my life, (my relationship with Chris, my awesome best-friend, & my little bro) it really helps! Some times it good to just forget about the shit & think about every thing I have. Once in a while I get so over-whelmed that I forget just what an amazing a world we live in.
I have a consult with my oral surgeon tomorrow! I can not wait. I'm super excited about getting my wisdom teeth removed. (As strange as that may seem) I still have the teeth that were removed before I got my braces, I think I'm going to have those four, & my wisdom teeth, dipped in silver & put them on a necklace. Haha, that's so creepy.
So la-dee-da. It's totally snowing right now. Is that not nuts? Snow, in October? Yeah right!
Wow this is a random blog-a-doo.
Blog-a-doo? What AM I talking about?!
I told Chris that I love him last night. It was sort of accidentally-on-purpose. I'd been thinking it earlier when we were fooling around, but I didn't want to say it then because he totally wouldn't have taken me seriously. Later, we were just snuggling on the couch, & I realized, this is how I feel! I can't let this moment pass, if I don't say how I feel right now I'll be to scared to say it later. So I said it! The second I did I thought, oh shit. So I added ''you're awesome.'' God I'm a dork. But it was okay! Chris made me repeat myself about three times, which sort of scared me. I almost thought he was going to break up with me right then & there, or worse, drive me home & tell me he needs "space." But instead he said that he loves me too & those words mean a lot to him. Aaaaah I'm sooo happy!
What a life!
Mmmk, I really think I have nothing to write about, this blog is all blathers. I'll try again tomorrow. (Maybe)
Love & fire-crackers,
Ariel
P.s. My dad is being a total dick-face today.
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