Guess who got laid last night!

My life is nuts right now. There's shit going on with the grown-ups & they don't even know that I know. I find it completely disgusting, I'm going to need a crap-ton of therapy sooner or later.

I'm in serious need of a car too. But alas, I don't have enough cash! (Donations of cash &/or cars will gratefully be accepted! No joke!)

Over all though I'm pretty happy. Whenever I start feeling stressed out I just think about all the wonderful things in my life, (my relationship with Chris, my awesome best-friend, & my little bro) it really helps! Some times it good to just forget about the shit & think about every thing I have. Once in a while I get so over-whelmed that I forget just what an amazing a world we live in.

I have a consult with my oral surgeon tomorrow! I can not wait. I'm super excited about getting my wisdom teeth removed. (As strange as that may seem) I still have the teeth that were removed before I got my braces, I think I'm going to have those four, & my wisdom teeth, dipped in silver & put them on a necklace. Haha, that's so creepy.

So la-dee-da. It's totally snowing right now. Is that not nuts? Snow, in October? Yeah right!

Wow this is a random blog-a-doo.
Blog-a-doo? What AM I talking about?!

I told Chris that I love him last night. It was sort of accidentally-on-purpose. I'd been thinking it earlier when we were fooling around, but I didn't want to say it then because he totally wouldn't have taken me seriously. Later, we were just snuggling on the couch, & I realized, this is how I feel! I can't let this moment pass, if I don't say how I feel right now I'll be to scared to say it later. So I said it! The second I did I thought, oh shit. So I added ''you're awesome.'' God I'm a dork. But it was okay! Chris made me repeat myself about three times, which sort of scared me. I almost thought he was going to break up with me right then & there, or worse, drive me home & tell me he needs "space." But instead he said that he loves me too & those words mean a lot to him. Aaaaah I'm sooo happy!

What a life!

Mmmk, I really think I have nothing to write about, this blog is all blathers. I'll try again tomorrow. (Maybe)

Love & fire-crackers,
Ariel

P.s. My dad is being a total dick-face today.

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Today was fun. I took the kids to the park, we basically spent most of the day there. I was s'posed to hang out with my boy & some of his friends but my mom is closing tonight & my dad 'n Tammie went to a party in Chicago, so I have to stay at home with the kids. To make sure that they don't, you know, make a huge mess, burn down the house, kill each other, or any combination of the three. Sad-face. :[ I don't really mind hanging out with the kids. They are working on their halloween costumes now, & when Aaron gets out of the shower we're going to play a board game, after that we're gonna watch a movie & go to bed. Hopefully all the beatings at the park wore them out! I'm just sad that I don't get to see Chris again. It's really weird staying home in the evening. Since we started going out I've pretty much spent every night at his house. But last night he was busy with stuff, & tonight, well I already explained that.

Bwaaaah. I don't want to work tomorrow. It was really nice having a day off. But I need the moniez. To be honest, I don't really mind having to work tomorrow, it's the fact that I wont have a ride home when I'm done that bothers me. Moms' working 'till like 5:30 or some thing, & dads' gonna be in Chicago till around...I dunno, 6ish I guess. I tried calling my grand-parents to see if maybe one of them could play taxi for me but both are busy with work & stuff. Both of my 'rents & Tammie said that I should just ask Chris, but I feel weird doing that. I hate having to ask for help in any sittuation, I had to force myself just to ask my grands', asking my new boyfriend would be excruciating. I HATE not having a car! UGH. Just kill me with a spoon already.

Speaking of spoons, there's actually a really cool band called Spoon. I just discovered them for the first time about 3 minutes ago.

Sheesh, this blog has been nothing but complaints. I think it's time to cut it short before I start ranting about politics or the state of the planet.

Love & mufflers,
Ariel

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I'm so insanely happy with my life right now. Chris, btw, is completely fantastic.
^_^ Ahhh, jeez, I don't even know what to write, I'm so befuddled!
That's a sweet word right thurr. Mwaaaah! I have to get up rather early in the a.m. so I do believe it's time for bed.
Night y'all!
Ariel

Real quick...

I just want every one to know that despite my vagina, I am a man & I think with my dick.
No, I'm not going to elaborate.

I got a new PHONE today! I'm soooooo excited! For those of you who don't know, the phone I've been using for the last year is a peice of zombie-clown CRAP. It does not have a functioning screen, & is just plain LAME. I'm not really suposed to be texting yet (I guess my 'rents need to update our plan to acomodate more textiness) but I sort of couldn't help myself.
Keehee. ^_^

Today was a pretty good day, I'm happy. I like it when things go my way once in a while!

Anyway, 'tis one in the a.m. & I have a rather important appointment tomorrow, so I should be off to bed.
Love & fishes,
Ariel

I don't want to rise before the sun

Dear Madeleine, If you ever dane to read my last post, I am very sorry for what I said. I made a hastey judgement & was overly emotional. What else is new right?

Now back to our feature presantation.

Woooh! So it's like 6:24 am. I have to be at work in less than 40 minutes. AND ITS STILL FREAKING DARK OUTSIDE! What the hell? Ugh, I HATE waking up when there's no SUNLIGHT!

That is soo not important right now, but I'm so out of my mind I have no idea what is important.
I should maybe right about Chris, or Mad, or my mom, or abortion protesters with extreamly graffic signs, or about the movie I saw yesterday, oorrrr.....the fact that I need to start working out again because I've become quite gellatinous. But at six in the morning I'd rather write rambeling non-sence.

I'll try this again later when I'm not so smashed.

The fiery furnaces

I couldn't sleep last night, & the few Z's I did catch were riddled with dreams that eerily fun-house-mirrored my real life.

At one point I dreamt that I was trying to tell Mad about sort of liking Evan (which never happend in real life) & having to choose between Chris & him. Even though there's no competition, in real life or my dreams. (Evans' a cool dude, but he makes me think of a mellowed out Ashton Kutcher who smokes to much pot.) But Mad was being a bitch & only wanted to yammer about herself. I think we were going to go swimming or some thing & I was looking for my bathing suit, when Madeleine started making up this song all about her. I got pissed off 'cause she's so self centered so I shoved her & ran out of the house. Then I proceeded to swim laps in the Rock river. (Which, in waking hind-sight, would not be such a good idea.)

It was bemusing. I much prefer the kind of dreams that shed light on a situation, or perhaps hand me a new way of looking at things. Not silly ones that share all the same feelings of my waking life with no resolution.

Now that I've recounted a bit of my bed time habits, I wonder if I should talk about Chris or Mad first? Hmm, I think I shall go with option number one.

So there's this guy, who's name I have mentioned frequently in this post. Mad 'n I met him at a show his band was playing about a year ago. (Or was it two?) He's also been working at Randee's for almost a year. He stopped in to B&N with one of his friendsters & we made with the chit-chat for a bit. I should have been working rather than yammering but it was a sslloooww night. Chris, predictably, asked for my number. Needless to say, I was thrilled. ^_^
There was some minor angst about that later because I couldn't remember his name (I'm bad with names! I can't help it), but it all worked out fine & dandy.

Novel cut short. I called Chris up & I hung out with him & some of his friendsters a couple days ago, & last night we watched a movie at his house & got our mac on. Bow chicka waw-wow.

I am so vulgar. Tee-hee!

Okay, on to complaining about Mad'Dog!
So the basic gist of things is, my bestest-friendster hasn't been much of a friend lately. She's really distant, & I feel like she's figuratively looking down her nose at me when ever I start recounting some of the happenings of my life. It's like the last couple of months she's just been more & more & like a snobby bitch. Not to mention self-centered. She's always acted like the whole goddamn universe revolved around her, but she's failing to see the expansion. Or maybe she does see all the planets slowly drifting away so she's trying to compensate by making even more shit all about her. UGH. Needless to say I'm feeling very frustrated. Hence the gratuitously colorful language. So I've stopped calling her. To be honest, I don't want to deal with any drama, so she can sort her own shit out. And if she still wants to be friends when it's all said & done, I'll be here.

Blah buh-blah buh-blah.

I need to pick an oral surgeon. I need all four of my wisdom teeth removed. I'm really not looking forward to having my gums cut open & my teeth yanked out, but I will be happy when my teeth are through with all the wise-pain.

Ooooh! Speaking of my teeth I'm getting a new retainer! As weird as it might be, I'm actually really syked about it.

Okay. That's enough crap from me today.
Love & pick-ups,
Ariel

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My life is so...full, right now. There's only a smige of drama & I'm happier for it.

So many thing's have been happening, I'm not sure what to write about or where to start!

Ho-kay. So, John drama? Basically we have been talking over myspace, & I've sort of asked him if he'd like to be friends again, but, I'm not really sure if that's what I want. I'm really afraid that if we start hanging out again he's going to want to be together, & I just can't do that.
My mind is completely boggeld on that front.

It seems like a sort of feud has erupted at work. It's Amber, & Hope (I think Deanna too, but I'm not sure) all against Hillary. To be honest I think the whole thing is completely insane. The thing is, I do like where I work, but when I'm not there, I don't really think about the store. I just can't understand why every one is so, worried about the cafe! I don't know, maybe it would be more important to me if I was older, or if being a barista was what I wanted to do with my life, but I just can't imagine being so upset about a few changes here & there. Yes, it can be irritating, yes there are times when I just feel fed up, but I deal with it, & I move on. Ugh, people are so weird.

Speaking of work, the other night when I was closing, a familier face stopped in. I met him after a show that his band had played last year. (Or was it two years ago?) And he works at the guitar shop that I go to. We stopped to chat for a bit, (who are you taking lessons from? Mike, Does he still...? Haha, yeah. And you? Hows the band? Oh yeah! Blah blah blah...) & he asked for my number. Now here's the rub (there's always a problem), I don't know his name. In fact, all I can remember about him is that he plays bass, & he has tattoos on his toes. Tattoos, on his toes. That's all I know.

I should be going, I have to hop in the shower before I trot off to work.
Love always,
Ariel