writers block

Hello dear blog! How was your Christmas? Mine was surprisingly good.

Christmas eve, Uncle Jerry, Tony(my awesome cousin), Jael(Grandma's best friend), Katriel(Jael's daughter), Alan(Jael's brother), & Jael's mom, all came over for dinner. It was really fun. Oh, my Uncle Jason is also here for the hollidays!

Christmas day, we all went over to my Aunt Margie's for dinner & such. It was much quieter than the night before, but still fun.

I felt rather guilty Christmas day. I received lots of great gifts from...every one! Even Jael & Katriel gave me some thing. I feel greatful, but undeserving, since I didn't get any one any thing. I'm sure every one understands, but I wish I could have done some thing. I have so many family members & friends that I love, that are important to me, I wish I could have given every one the presents they deserve.

Oh well, I'll do my best to make it up next year!

Before the hollidays, mom finally moved down here! Dad helped her move, & he brought my Uncle Will, (who is thinking about moving to Tucson) & the best before-Christmas present ever, Madeleine! I wish I'd had more time to spend with my dad & Mad, but it was awesome to see them again.

Now what? Um....Well, I'm feel extreamly angsty for various reasons. But...I don't really feel like writing about that right now. In fact, I think I'm done with this blog. I'm tired of writing about my life's drama.

Love & beans,
Ariel

Hello darkness, my old friend

Dear Universe,

You are cruel, harsh, unfair, twisted. You just can't let me live a peaceful life, can you? You have plans & intentions to big for me to get my head around.

All I want is to live a happy life, but you wont stand for that will you? You have to take every dream & turn it into a nightmare.

What's your problem anyway?

Spitefully yours,
Ariel

RAWR

Dear (any one),

Please give me a job.

I learn quick, & always work hard. I'm hardly ever late, & I swear I wont call in sick unless I'm really sick.

I know I'm young, & sort of inexperienced, & there are plenty of other people who want the job you have to give, but you wont regret it if you hire me.

I'll work as much or as little as you need!

I really need this job.

Please & thank you!
Ariel

This is a blog.

I took Aaron to Bisbee yesterday. It was nice, we window shopped for a while, (I found waaay to many things I wanted to buy) & we spent more of Aaron's money than we should have.

Aaron was mistaken for a girl twice, hahaha! That seems to be happening a lot since we got here. It's really weird since he doesn't even have long hair. Maybe if he was walking around with boys instead of me, people wouldn't think he was female. I mean, we look a lot alike, & his voice hasn't started changing yet, so I guess people just assume he's my sister. Whatever the reason, it makes me crack up. I try to make Aaron feel better about it, but I can't help but laugh.

Today I went with Jael & her daughter Katriel to this art thing at the college. It was cool, free soup, music, art, giant bonfires. Did I mention free soup?

Jael kept introducing me to people, telling them I'm new to town & don't know what to do with myself. Which is true, I guess, but to be honest, I'm not really in the market for new friends. If I had any cash flow, I'd want to save it, not spend it on silly outings with friends. I'm leaving in June at the latest, (assuming I actually go to school like my mom & dad want) so I don't really see the point in wasting time on people I wont keep in touch with.

But Jael doesn't know that. Neither do my grandparents. I haven't really told many people that I intend to move back. Just my parents & maybe three friends.

I'm not really sure why I'm not telling people. I'm sure I have a good reason, I just don't know what it is yet. Some thing in my gut tells me to keep my mouth shut for now.

That's all for now. I'm not really in a writing mood.
Love & onions,
Ariel

This title is grey.

Soooo, hmm...

Here's my to-do list:

• Get out of the house.
• Move. (As in, get off your butt, go for a walk.)
• Smile. (Try not to fake it.)
• Keep trying to find a job. (Even though you'd rather give up, & spend your time watching tv & eating chips.)
• Do not sulk or dwell. (You're going to do it anyway, but try not to do it for more than a few minutes at a time.)

I think that pretty much sums up how I'm feeling tonight. Maybe not.