After writing my last blog, I went back & read the stuff I wrote last year.
OHMYGOD I AM SO FREAKING NUTS.
Every other paragraph was about 'boyfriend'. Remember that dick? WHY was I so convinced that I LOVED him?! Lets get this straight, I was never in love with Nick B. I was just...obsessed.
I think it's actually a very good thing that he broke up with me when he did.
Even though I was depressed & not myself for about three months after. And that made the whole thing with John happen...& I sort of went a little crazy & did some things no one could be proud of...
Wow.
I'm not like that.
Really.
But...I almost wish I could go back to being me, before 'boyfriend' ever came along. I learned a lot from him & John, & later from Tim. But...I was so...relaxed.
Ohmygod I'm crazy.
Love & happy pills,
Ariel
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