Stumble & st-st-stutter

I've become quite addicted to the intorwebz as of late. Some times I forget just how many websites there are to see. I just finished reading this blog, it was pretty interesting. http://www.barbwired.com/nadiaweb/nawl/archives/cat_travel.html

I really should stop procrastinating. :/
Meh.

I need to do dishes, if I don't my mum will be quite pissed, & I wont get to go to the Ice-hogs game tonight.

Anyways. I've never been a jealous person, I sound like I'm full of crap, but honestly I just don't get jealous. Some times I think I'm missing some thing crucial, but I don't know how to be jealous. But I found myself feeling the sting of envy thursday when I went to the mall with Nick & Mad. I'm not even going to write about it, I feel silly just thinking about it. I'm such a moron some times.

I can't help being who I am though. I guess I just forgot how inexperienced I am with guys. Latley I've been feeling like I just don't know how to be a girlfriend, let alone a good one. I don't know what Nick wants, & that's making me feel quite insecure. When my age comes up in conversation Boyfriend will say some thing like "yeah, I'm a bad man" & it makes me feel like I'm just this silly little girl. But basically that's what I am.

Freud couldn't figure out what women want, but what do men want?!

I spent so long wanting Nick, wishing that we could be together. But I don't know what to do now that I have him!

Now don't get me wrong, I'm not unhappy with our relationship. I less than three Nick!
He's ah-mai-zing. Every moment we're together is greater than the last. I just want him to feel the same way! I want to know that he's happy.

It's to bad he's so busy. The whole two job thing really sucks.
Gah.

A'right, time to get a mooooove on.
I've gots ta' get the kitchen clean.

Love & blisters,
Ariel